miss-allaneous

i am here in this place wondering what on earth i am going to do sitting waiting watching as the world passes me by thinking what in Gods name is my duty hear what i hear see what i see feel these numbing sensations then you will truely understand

one timid day when i was riding in a car i couldnt really call my own, i thought of all the things i worried about, all the petty things i thought were important, all the things my heart ached from, all the things that caused my brain to swell and then thought of how important they would seem to me in about 10 years or so, and came to the realisation that they probaly wouldnt at all- i probaly wouldnt even remember them. so why do we get so caught up in the 'here and now'? why do we dwell on the past and forget the future even exisists? what we experiance this min, this hour, this day, has been done, it has its own place in history, it has

i have days where i think about everything and anything, when i have thoughts run through my head at a thousand miles an hour andd sometimes i cannot even control them today i am having one of those days it is good... yet hard as well, sometimes when im in the car i sit and look outside the window, i see a plam tree swaying, a person walking by or even a pebble flick from underneath the car and i wonder about what is going to happen in the future for me and how those things i have seen are going to be incorprated in my life whoa, not even i made sense to myself just then, i dont know how to explain it though- i have this surge of energy ru